This has been a bummer two days. J and I are both feeling rejection from our families right now. While it is true that our immediate families have not kicked us out of their lives, sometimes it feels like they might as well. Well, at least it does to me.
I mean, I came out in order to stop the lying. I know the initial shock was very upsetting, but it has been a year and a half, people. I seriously think that they would rather I have continued living a lie and pretend that I was happy for the sake of keeping a family together. I know my daughters were hurt that I left them and their dad. I. get. it. I really do. It was the hardest decision I have ever had to make. I don't expect my girls to accept J as a friend or a co-parent or a part of their family. But the time has come for them to actually meet her face-to-face, if only just once. J did not break up our family; I did. I don't know how much more of this I can take, I really don't. Feeling like J and I should just go back into hiding like we did in college.