Thursday, November 20, 2008


My name is B. I am just pushing 50. I have never considered myself to be a lesbian, gay, queer, etc. I have just always considered myself to be in love with a beautiful person, who, yes, happens to be the same sex as I am. Her name is J, and you will hear an awful lot about her the next few posts.

Six weeks ago I made a life-changing decision. I willfully left my husband of almost 19 years and my two daughters, ages 15 and 18, to be with the one who I have always been destined to be with. This blog will be an account of the journey I have made, the decision that I have made, which has affected countless individuals - my husband, my children, my parents, my family, my friends, myself and J. How could I do this, you may ask. How could I leave my own flesh and blood? I ask myself that question daily. But then I ask myself, "How could I not?" Hopefully, through this blog you will begin to consider what it has been like for me to live for 23 years without my "Endless Love". I don't expect for you to agree with my decision, just to listen and comment as you wish. And maybe, just maybe, you will wish J and I well; because, you see, we have always been meant to be together -- I know that when I look into her eyes. No one will ever love me as much as she does, nowhere else in the world do I feel safe and comfortable. For once in my life, I am where I want to be.


saintchick said...

I just wanted to say hi and welcome. When I started, someone did this for me and it meant allot.

Leo MacCool said...

hey, thanks for stopping by on my blog. it sounds like you're having quite a year, hope this turns into a helpful & cathartic space to write about it all.

nina said...

i know the road you travel... may you travel in peace together forever